Jittery

A long but mostly uneventful trip to DC. Sure, there was the awkwardness of having BBB and CrazyBoss meet up during dinner. But for the most part nothing untoward was said and, despite the fact he thinks she's kind of cute in a MILF-like way (blechblechblech), I think I survived the week in tact.

This weekend was another story. The entire time I was massively on edge and jittery. I have no idea why. I could feel the tension and anxiety in every part of my body and kept getting body trembling, panicky attacks out of nowhere.

And I have no idea why.

I had a lot of little errandy things on my agenda but nothing hanging overhead that I was worrying about. Nothing looming on the horizon for the workweek that I was worried about. So why the jitters?

I kept thinking there was something going on energetically. I often have a touch of the premonition. But friends are in top form, GoodBuddy was in a good mood and the family, except for some headcoldsnifflies, seem fine.

I went for a long walk around the island. (It was COLD last night!!!) and that seemed to help. Hearing the ocean waves crash and smelling the briney air whip against my face did a lot to give me some perspective.

Today I'm feeling a little better but definitely still a bit on edge. I really need to figure out what's going on. Because this is getting really old, really fast....