Holy Matrimony

I admit, I watched the whole royal wedding. I didn't want to, but the reminiscince of the wedding of Diana - on my birthday - was too compelling.

Yet, the beauty and the paegentry reminded me of that what is lacking in my own life. I can celebrate victories of my own accord. And I can enjoy the results of disruptive circumstances.

The fact remains, when I need support or comfort, I simply cannot turn to Handsome Man. How I wish that I could. For that is what I need of a lover; not a "fixer" but a "comforter." Alas, it doesn't seem that we will ever see eye to eye. And so maybe we need to say goodbye.

.Protocal

Many years ago, Lady Diana Spencer married Prince Charles on my birthday, the 29 of July. I woke early, with my best friend alongside, and watched the entire proceedings. Lady/Princess Diana wore a beautiful dress ... for the 80's. Regardless, she was a princess for an age needing a princess.

Now, it's time for Dianna's son to lead the realm. And in 6+ hours, the festivities will begin. I WANT to watch. I'm eager to see the pageantry and decorum. I also feel slightly guilty about transcending my actual concerns with the distraction of something that means, to be frank, little regarding my daily life and concerns.

The girl in me that threw quarters into the pond at Bloomingdales and wished to wear a Cinderella dress, and the woman in me that adored three days spent in DisneyWorld with unlimited chances to meet princesses, and the person in me who wears trailgear and functional-wear - we're in a bit of a quandry.

Do I waant to wake up uber early to see the pageantry? Or do I just really want to sleep long and deep?

I can't believe this is even a matter of importance....

Warning - dork-itude ahead

I've truly and honestly been trying to get into the Game of Thrones. I mean, it seems like something right up my alley. But watching it - and so many of it's kin - it just doesn't hold water. I have a map of Arthurian England on my bedroom wall. I have a gilded copy of Mallory's Morte d'Arthur on my bookshelf. Hell, I have a mapped out family tree and a graded copy of an Honors Treatise. Can any story come up against that comprehensive tale of love and angst and fealty and betrayal? Sure - I have some knowledgeable friends who would protest intelligently and effectively that there are collections of work that do just that. But a single, narrative myth that encompasses so many emotions, so much raw humanity... I just don't see it. And these new stories, adapted by HBO and Showtime and Starz and... while they might serve the purpose of viewership, they just don't hold up. The reality is, the stories of old, twisted and meddled with in every which way, are still the originals. They had it right back then. And we shouldn't keep trying to improve upon the old ways. Because they can't be improved upon... Sorry to be all dork-i-tude. But I did graduate with honors...

Pet Peeves

OK - so we all have a lot going on in our lives. And it's tough to keep all the details of all our friends' activities straight. But I try, for the most part, to keep the basics in mind. So-and-so is going on vacation the week of ... such-and-such is going to be home the week of ... ETC. So, yea, it's tough. But, when it comes to the people you love ... Handsome Fella knew on Tuesday that a dear dearest friend and her living-abroad husband would be visiting. He got pissed that I couldn't have lunch with him. Tonight, he's called twice despite me telling him that I would be hanging with another good friend. Yesterday, when I told him I was out in Ipswich he asked me why. UM? Because I have a job interview and I'm freaking about money? I know he's got a lot of stuff on his mind. But so do I. And is it really that hard to keep the details of your girlfriends life in mind? It's coming time for me to re-evaluate the situation. He learns - but only in retrospect. And he is sweet and caring, but only when he's available to. Now that I've got more time to think and less time stressing about (frankly) meaningless shite, I think some serious meditation is in order... So there you have it.

Homeopathy is a crock - Matt Kirshen

I DON'T believe homeopathy is a crock. But I do belive we need to be aware of ALL our options.